Sometimes when I'm feeling depressed, or that awkward emotion when you want to be alone, but you actually want someone to come and talk to you, I sit on the curb in the front of my house.
Today was one of those awkward emotion days.
Everything was okay, actually that's a lie. Ma mere was in a bad mood, so naturally everyone else was in a bad mood. My friends ditched me and our pool plans. I finished my book (that's the literal worst). And later in the evening when I came home from being with my friends I felt alone.
Can I have a teenage girl moment? Ok here goes: I want a boy. Is that so much to ask? Not a boyfriend, but someone who really likes me. I cannot be the only girl out there with this problem. I feel like all the guys always fall over my friends. They're beautiful, and quirky, fun, and a little dumb - so perfect boy material, I guess? So today I sat outside on my curb, in the dark, all alone. Pathetic.
Is there something wrong with me? What a cliche question to ask. But seriously, is there? I think I'm funny, smart, beautiful. I'm a bit of a know-it-all, I really hate being wrong, I can be petty and hypocritical, but isn't everyone else sometimes? What is it about me that makes guys label me as, "friend"?
I'm having too much of a teenage girl moment. Feeling sorry for myself, something I loathe doing (and yet it seems to happen a lot).
I've been reading too many romance novels. Someone e-mail me with a good book to read!
Deuces
